Making my way to his house
At 8pm what good could come?
Secretly I knew myself
Hesitated on that road then
Convinced myself that I could go
I loved the way he made me feel
Physically holding me
He fed my pride and gave me chills but

Does he really got it to be offering? (Huh)
Loving you leaves me numb
Caught up in my own demise
Ain’t even noticed that I closed my eyes

Life it got the upper hand
Caught me when I turned my back
Held me till I couldn’t breath
Deception hid by honesty
Ignoring that small voice
And letting yours grow loud
In this life we’re blessed with choice
But blessings fade when I choose hell

Do you really got it to be offering (no)
Loving you leaves me numb
Caught up in my own demise
Ain’t even noticed that I closed my eyes

Now I be on some woke deal
This world be on it’s own
Feel me?
Won’t put my loss before the fear of God
Fearing my loss more than I fear my God?
Wow

5 years of friendship was finished
On the night that we did it
It was more my fault than yours cuz
Why’d I get myself in this
Sadness evoked from misplaced hope
Showed you it all then got ghosted
Crazy naive..
Acted a joke for you (for you)

Now I be on some woke deal
This world be on it’s own
Feel me?
Won’t put my life before the fear of God
Fearing my loss more than I fear my God?
Wow

Now I be on some woke deal
This world be on it’s own
Feel me?
Won’t put my loss before the fear of God
Cuz I shoulda knew better
I shoulda knew better
I shoulda knew better

Prayed for me and read with me
Grateful for community
Kammy, James & Bri you
Led me when I couldn’t see (huh)

Song by Asha Elia

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